the street preachers get it!

Inadequacy. That's all I feel today. I don't even know why. God has plans for me, but I just don't think that it involves music education.

I love music and I think it should undoubtedly be taught in the schools. But it's not my passion! There's only been a couple days where I've gone into school and been excited to teach kids music. It's just not a passion of mine. I want to share the gospel with the kids. I want to explain to them the infinite love of God, but unfortunately public schools don't allow me to mention such things. I know I could be a good music teacher. I know that I could have an impact on the students and teachers in my community. But the way I see it is that this life is short and I don't want to waste my time wishing I could open up to these kids about the gospel! I want to directly preach the gospel.

Now, if I choose to directly preach the gospel, I have to do just that. I have to be bold. I have to "always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks me to give the reason for the hope that I have." [1 Peter 3:15]

This past summer I was sitting in an applebee's with my friend and he said to me, "if you and I actually understood the vital fact that most of the people in this restaurant are going to hell, we'd want to do something about it! But the problem is...most Christians don't consciously think with that mindset." The truth is, the guy on the street corner gets it. He gets the urgency of the gospel. If you read Matthew 10, Jesus is PREACHING THE URGENCY OF THE GOSPEL! WE NEED TO GET OUT THERE! THE WORLD NEEDS THIS! But instead we sit in our little Christian bible studies and listen to our CCM radio and hang out with our church friends on weekends. WE NEED TO GET OUT THERE. I NEED TO GET OUT THERE. and TEACHING music, yes, it's out there in the world. But it's not my passion.

Preaching the gospel is my passion. Music is my passion. How can I combine the two? Well that's something I'm still praying about...

EDIT:
I do have to add that the one time in my life that I felt the most purpose was when I went to Dominican Republic this summer. I mean, God just was THERE. He was working and we could see it. Now how can I bring that purpose back overseas with me here?